am i?

am i another soil to fill the hole in ur heart?..am i?.. i know its bad to think this way but i jz cant help to worry about us... i dun wan that incident to happen agn.. what shud i do? =/...
there are uncountable ques i wana ask..but how shud i ask?.. bet u'll say *stop worrying* but how???!!!! tell me how to stop worrying!!! zzz
all i want is a SURE about ur feelings...
sigh....i love u <3..... and i rly hope u feel the same way for me....
GBU& me <3.......

hmm?

i went out with him and his frens ytd.. i thought i will disappoint.. cz i thought im going his house =x.. but actually its quite fun hanging with them.. how i hope wad i heard about them is nt true =x...
i made my fren disappointed.. alot =.=...and i even think of sumthing bad .. but in the end. we bcm rly great fren lol <3... i hope =x... omg~ =.= its too private to write this in blog xD i guess i'll jz keep this in my heart xDD
Well...jz hope everything is fine =x and hope he know how to appreciate me this time >< . hope U LEARNT ur lesson for wad uve done xp~
GBme&u~ <3

wad am i thinking....

wad am i thinking? wad am i thinking omggg....wad am i thinking!!!?!?!?!.....did i make the wrong move..i made so many ppl disappointed...*but y i care for u the most?*....who? how?..since when?..... omg its so complicated=.=i guess no1 will understand wad im writting cz i dun either zz... everything jz back to the begining.. isit going to be fine? isit a good thing..? isit worth? isit too late to turn back now? ... but i jz cant...sign....... why..?........ wad shud i do zzzzzzzzz.......
sign.......GBme..

omg....some1 tell me pls ><...

omg...wad is this feeling =.=...y ur words have such impact to me...jz 1 simple sentences... i dono wad i wan and i dono my feelings... isit possible that.. i actually like some1 but i dun realise it? lol or jz as fren..? but i feel so sux when u said u 200% disappointed =(... somehow when im rly sad..u made me laugh alot. and now i cant made up my mind. im jz no different with biatch =(... i rly hope time will show everything. and pls GOD..guide me to the right path <3.. GBU

2010~0102

2010~0102 is a special number i guess xD..well its for me only though..i nvr thought the volcano within me will burst .. and i couldnt control lol~ ..wad made me felt like heaven is that. u feel the same way i do. i guess? well altho ur mouth said no but ur heart showed everything. ^^ <3 somethings about u has change but some has not. but i dun care how badly u hurted or wad u did to me...i cant believe i stiill like u so much. ytd when u decided to meet me. i knew i got some chances xD cz i know u wont meet me if u dun have feelings for me..well wad make me CONCERN ==....is ur zz hp =.=... *gud things about me u dun learn.. bad things u learn so fast* =.=... but ..oh well. i think i jz have to believe myself. and i know u wouldnt like it if i ask too much =/.. i hope u will change for me like how im trying to change for u <3...
GBU <3

its a new year now <3

2009 was quite a special year i guess..cant believe time jz flow so fast...alot of things happened in nov and dec in 2009. it was so complicated lol~.. i thought i was completely fine but i found out that my heart doesnt follow wad my mind wants..2 years was not very long but its not short, too.. the time weve been through..i still rmb it clearly.. promises u made..things u said.. *sign*....i still rmb on that night u hugged me and ask me to trust u. and i did.. i thought u are different with other ppl ..but u still broke my heart....wad surprise me is that i cant make myself to hate u. maybe im jz not gud enuff ? lol~ wads in guys mind actually =.= guys dun understand us girls and we too, dun understand guys =.=....im not vampire who can read minds like edward LOLS~
there are so much more i wan to say but i dono how to express it..*sign*~

jz hope everything will be better in 2010 <3 -my 1st post-*GBU*~